TO BE a THIEF by John Margeryson Lord

Author:John Margeryson Lord [Lord, John Margeryson]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781466905795
Publisher: Trafford Publishing
Published: 2012-01-20T00:00:00+00:00

JML

19/8/2011

TERRIFIED

His very first conscious though was that he was awake. And that was all—

He was awake. For some reason his mind could not consider anything else—He was awake.

He seemed to be lying comfortably but his eyes were shut and at first he found that he could not open them. His mind said—he was awake. It felt important that he was awake.

It was not a thought but a feeling that it was unnaturally quiet.

He did not panic yet.

And still his only thought was that he was awake.

A deep half conscious sense, edged with anxiety, held him back from opening his eyes.

He was awake.

That simple fact seemed to be embracingly all important.

He was awake.

Then from nowhere a wave of sheer panic threatened to overwhelm him.

He was awake—and what that implied he had no idea.

And he found that he still had no other thought other than he was awake.

Even this thought was more of a sensation than an idea.

Why was his mind devoid of all activity—it was empty—scarily, frighteningly empty. Again he still had no other thought than that he was awake.

`TAKE CONTROL’—it was just a sensation—but—it seemed like an order.

He was awake—there was an implication in the statement.

Then—

A new thought—It burst upon him like a flash of lightening—he must do something—BUT WHAT?

`HE MUST OPEN HIS EYES’

This idea came with a shock on a wave of sheer, fearful, desperate panic.

Fear was a sensation that was to become very familiar to him.

It took some courage but he gently rubbed his eyes—and light was streaming in from somewhere. At first he could not identify from where—You are awake, said his mind.

And then he began to wonder why could he not think of anything else but that he was awake.

He overcame this new panic but he knew it was just below the surface.

He shut his eyes to shut out the light. The light that was urging him to do something, but what? He let his head, which had begun to hurt, sink back into the soft pillow.

It was then that he found a reluctance to open his eyes again and face whatever he was afraid of.

`BUT YOU MUST’,—said his mind—because you are awake.

It hit him like a shock. Like a blow to his stomach. He was almost sick and panic rose to the surface again, and was squashed with something of an effort.

He had not the slightest idea where he was.

Then even worse he had no idea about anything.

His mind held nothing, no memory, no images—NOTHING.

And then—who was he?—he had no idea and felt panic rise again.

Then real terror took over, his mind ceased to cope, and he drifted back into that comfortable oblivion from which he had just been awakened and from which he was even now being nudged.

`YOU ARE AWAKE’

This time it could not be ignored.

I AM AWAKE he acknowledged and opened his eyes.

What he saw frightened and bewildered him, but now he really was wide awake, and was able to see.

At first he could not take in everything he saw, and what he did take in puzzled and frightened him.

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